What Have I Done For You?
I know you’re wondering this,
That you want to know.
You want to know how much I love you,
What you’ve done for me.
I wish you didn’t ask that,
I wish I didn’t need to answer that.
I wish it could just stay inside me,
But I have to.
You have done everything for me,
You’ve learnt me how it is to love.
You’ve made me smile more often,
You’ve made me more happy then I’ve ever been.
You’ve made me know how it is to live,
You’ve made me experience how real life is.
You’ve made me laugh,
You’ve done everything for me.
As you see,
You’ve done everything for me.
And the question which should be asked is,
What have I done for you?
- Atia Ijaz
I Didn’t Love You Anyway!
You broke my heart,
Left me without saying a word.
The boy I thought was the right for me,
Turned out to be a fraud.
I thought you really loved me,
I thought you really cared.
I thought you could do anything for me,
But all you did was to leave me.
But why do I care about you,
Did I actually love you so much?
You thought you could hurt me, didn’t you?
Well listen now.
I don’t even care that you’re gone,
I don’t even think about you a second.
You didn’t hurt me, no, because;
I didn’t love you anyway!
- Atia Ijaz
Why Can’t It Be Perfect?
All my life,
I’ve been wondering this.
All my time,
I’ve wasted on this.
I am happy,
But not all the time.
I am happy,
But it’s just not perfect.
Why can’t everything be as I want it to be?
Why can’t I smile all the time?
Why is it so hard to understand?
It’s just not as I want it to be!
Why can’t I talk with him whenever I want,
Without being disturbed?
Why can’t I be with him forever,
In a place all alone?
When I’m with him,
It feels like I’m in heaven.
When I talk with him,
I don’t want him to go, never.
And he doesn’t,
He doesn’t leave.
I’m the one who does that,
I’m the one who live in this darkness.
Sometimes I wish I could just disappear,
To another place.
I wish I could be alone,
Alone with him.
But I can’t just disappear,
Only in my imagination.
It’s just not fair!
I don’t want to live like this!
But that’s how my life is going to be,
It will never be as I want it to.
I won’t get to live happily with him,
Won’t get to feel his love to me.
I’ll live in this darkness forever,
And think about my only happiness, him.
Why can’t it be as I want it to,
Why can’t it be perfect?
- Atia Ijaz
Alone In This Darkness
Everything you’ve heard,
Everything you’ve read.
Everything you think is true,
Don’t believe on that.
It’s all lies,
It’s not true.
Don’t trust them,
I do love you.
I hope you understand,
My life is just shit.
You’re the only happiness I’ve got,
The small light with the darkness around.
I hope you understand,
It’s not easy for me.
I hope you understand,
I’m trapped in this darkness.
Do you know how glad I am to have found you?
My greatest happiness,
My only happiness.
No one have ever loved me as much as you do.
So please don’t leave me,
Don’t make my whole life to a hell.
I have nothing else to live for,
Please, I beg you.
I finally know how much you love me,
Even though, I don’t know how it started.
Why did you love me in the beginning?
Was it so hard to tell?
All my written words,
They are for you.
And now my whole life,
I’m giving to you.
I won’t have anything to live for,
I won’t have anyone to write for,
If you leave me alone,
In this darkness.
- Atia Ijaz
Why..?
Girl says:
Why can’t I understand,
That it will never happen with me?
Why can’t I understand,
That I will never be free?
Why can’t I understand,
That he will never agree?
Why..?
Boy says:
Why can’t you understand,
What I feel for you?
Why can’t you understand,
That I can give my life to you?
Why can’t you understand,
That I love you?
Why..?
- Atia Ijaz
I Did Cry
What are you doing here in my thoughts?
I thought you left me for a long time ago.
You left me with a broken heart,
Left me without telling what the problem was.
I thought I could handle that,
Thought I could live without you.
But now, suddenly,
You’re back..?
I got so many other things to do,
I got a whole life to go through.
But still I remember,
Those days…you and me…
NO!
I don’t want these thoughts!
I don’t need you here in my life!
I won’t remember that day,
I just want you away!
It was steaming inside me,
My heart was crying more then ever.
When you left me…
I still remember that day.
And now, please go away!
I remember when your friend told me that,
That you don’t want anything to do with me.
How can I cry for that?!
I don’t need a jerk like you in my life!
But I did.
I did cry when you left.
But before that,
I slowly got to know,
Know that you didn’t love me any more,
That you don’t give a shit!
I did cry…
- Atia Ijaz
