You don’t know how long I’ve been hiding them
The lack of feelings inside me
All the sorrows I’ve kept
In the darkest corner of my heart

I don’t need to tell you about the nights
When I cry myself to sleep
You don’t need to know about the anger
That is surrounding me

Because
You’ll never understand me
You’ll never understand my words, my thoughts
You’ll never understand why my heart is aching

I’ve tried to tell you
But failed
I’ve tried to make you understand
But you didn’t want to listen

You’ll never understand

Never understand how much I wish
I wish I didn’t exist
Never understand my pain
You’ll never understand what’s bothering me so much

I wish that I could tell you
But what’s the point
You’ll never understand

- Atia Ijaz

I never meant to hurt anyone
I never wanted you to hate me
I just tried to be happy
Just tried to smile

I’m afraid I won’t get a new chance
A chance to say I’m Sorry
A chance to be forgiven

Forgive me for my mistakes
Forgive me for being so horrible
Forgive me for bold

No, you won’t
You’ll never forgive me
Not even talk to me

You say it doesn’t matter
But I know it does
I can see it in your eyes
The hate

The hate that will never forgive me
The hate that just wants to avoid me
The hate that wants me to get bad conscience
The hate that lives in you

Before you walk away from me forever
I just want to say

I’m Sorry

- Atia Ijaz