You Don’t Know What You Got…
I’m sorry
Sorry that I can’t
Can’t be with you
Can never be with you
I’m sorry that you may get hurt
I’m sorry if you already are
But you know it’s impossible
You and me
You said you got strong feelings
That you really love me
And I tried to explain
That I just can’t
I don’t want this
And I never have wanted it
Never wanted to be loved
Don’t want anyone to come near me
Now you’re gone
Far away from me
From everyone
And I regret…
Should have given you a chance
To love me
To love you
I should
My heart is aching
Do you know that?
It wants you back
It never will
It’s true what they say
You really don’t know what you got
Till it’s gone…
- Atia Ijaz
Will You?
If I ever get lost
Will you try to find me?
If I ever feel down
Will you let me sleep in your arms?
If I ever feel lonely
Will you be there for me?
Even if I get old
Will you still be there for me?
Those were my wishes
What I had always wanted
Those are my broken dreams
What I didn’t get
- Atia Ijaz
Never or Forever?
I have something to tell you
Something very important
Something about us
And our life together
Please don’t be mad at me
But I don’t want to waste my time
On something that will never happen
I just have to be sure
I’ve been getting the impression
That you don’t love me any more
You’re not the guy I fell in love with
You’re someone else now
The way you talk to me
I can almost see you rolling your eyes at me
You’ve been acting so short with me
Almost sarcastic
I still remember how it was before
All the days I was happy
When you said I love you all the time
I miss how obsessed you were
If you really don’t love me any more
Don’t be afraid to tell me
I can live with the tears
At least, for now
- Atia Ijaz
I’m Sorry
I’m sorry that I loved you
I’m sorry that you didn’t
I’m sorry that I trusted you
I’m sorry that you were a liar
I’m sorry that I was blind
I’m sorry that you played with me
I’m sorry that I got hurt
I’m sorry that it was because of you
I’m sorry that I thought it was love
I’m sorry that you’ve never liked me
I’m sorry that I’m alone now
I’m sorry that you left me
- Atia Ijaz
I Didn’t Love You Anyway!
You broke my heart,
Left me without saying a word.
The boy I thought was the right for me,
Turned out to be a fraud.
I thought you really loved me,
I thought you really cared.
I thought you could do anything for me,
But all you did was to leave me.
But why do I care about you,
Did I actually love you so much?
You thought you could hurt me, didn’t you?
Well listen now.
I don’t even care that you’re gone,
I don’t even think about you a second.
You didn’t hurt me, no, because;
I didn’t love you anyway!
- Atia Ijaz
Alone In This Darkness
Everything you’ve heard,
Everything you’ve read.
Everything you think is true,
Don’t believe on that.
It’s all lies,
It’s not true.
Don’t trust them,
I do love you.
I hope you understand,
My life is just shit.
You’re the only happiness I’ve got,
The small light with the darkness around.
I hope you understand,
It’s not easy for me.
I hope you understand,
I’m trapped in this darkness.
Do you know how glad I am to have found you?
My greatest happiness,
My only happiness.
No one have ever loved me as much as you do.
So please don’t leave me,
Don’t make my whole life to a hell.
I have nothing else to live for,
Please, I beg you.
I finally know how much you love me,
Even though, I don’t know how it started.
Why did you love me in the beginning?
Was it so hard to tell?
All my written words,
They are for you.
And now my whole life,
I’m giving to you.
I won’t have anything to live for,
I won’t have anyone to write for,
If you leave me alone,
In this darkness.
- Atia Ijaz
